MADE IN WOMB
I AM SOPHIE.
I am a Rebel Mother Artist. I question what is. I question the way we live. I question myself. I am not assigned to an agent or gallery, I represent myself.
I am an Artist in residence in my body as a Mother.
In 2003 my intuition called; study Art, she said. I was 23. I jacked in my temping job. With no appropriate qualifications; namely ‘I couldn’t draw’, and applied for a Fine Art degree.
My ‘life experience’ sealed the deal. I got on. With a First-Class Honors (not bad for a school drop out) in my pocket and the belief of; if you become a Mother you won’t make it in the Art World, I was set! DON’T HAVE KIDS.
'Made in Womb' is an intuitive investigation.
A creative communion with my woman's body and Motherhood.
Conversations with my shame healed and continues to heal my wounds within. I buried the pain of my shame.
Until I began to question? Where does our pain and shame sit within us? What if my pain filled up the sacred space of my womb? What if that is why my period (which I call my bleed and will refer to is as my bleed from here on in) are so painful because of the pain I have suppressed?
What if I hid my pain in my eggs and my children are my invitations to meet it?
I removed my moon cup. I poured the blood on to the 2 metres of unbleached calico fabric. I watched it run down. Staining it. Dripping into the water. Down the drain. Shame. Absolute shame. What will people think? I don't want to touch it. Why am I feeling so compelled to do this? I will have to hide it! In that instance I became aware of the narrative so many women have carried for bleeding and for being 'other'.
We are all, Made in Womb. We all grow ourselves innately, without thinking. We do. We become. So why when we land earth side does the trust in our self-creation get muted? Why is there so much shame still about menstruation? Why are we so quick to pop a ‘pill’ to hide from it? Why are Mothers, who are life creators, so rare in the Art World?
What is the truth of Motherhood? Why in the Art World is there an arbitrary judgement; 'you can't be a good Mother and a good Artist? What does that even mean? I am curious what is defined as 'good'. Is my truth 'good'? Is being open about bleeding ok to share with my kids?
These are just some of the questions I explore in 'Made in Womb'. I am seeking truth about Motherhood and being a Woman with a womb. I claim the Mother Artist badge, I will wear it with pride. I will no longer be complicit in a system which is not inclusive.
Join me on my journey by clicking on the Artworks below. My ‘Bleed Blog’ shares my intimate stories from my first bleed, sex with my first boyfriend to touching my blood.